The longest Night in NTU

I cleared my final paper on the 4th, last friday.

My weekends were filled with tuition sessions ( super tiring ) and lack of sleep. Thank goodness i had the luxury to drive back to hall on Sunday evening to settle my one last academic errand.....

The longest night in NTU started at 830pm. Waiting impatiently on my desk was my laptop with Microsoft Powerpoint with a file titled 'FYP_PRESENTATION' running on the screen. Stuck in a dreadful and sleepy state, i cursed and ponder why i'm forever running on little sleep and time for studies

Sometimes people see me as a slacker, and i wonder if i really am one. I'm pretty sure most people think of me as a playful and lazy person i.e. I dont do well in my course proper in SCE, and i get busy for the wrong reasons. Read on :

1) one 2 hour tuition session on Wed, Friday; one 3 hour tuition session on Sat; one 4 hour tuition session on Sunday.

2) commit time to skate every friday night from 730pm to 1am sat

3) spending time to write this blog ( Opps!!!!)

4)I also like to spend time talking to myself ( helps alot when the whole world out there is partying away and i'm stuck with lizard dungs, mozzie bites and sheer chill of the the night's emptiness ).

I dont really think i was excited about finishing my presentation; it's the life AFTER my presentation that kept me going strong. I was quite excited about doing my presentation well to the extend that at about 1145pm on sunday night, i even drove to the academic blocks to recce the presentation tutorial room.

While walking pass the dead silenct passage alongside labs and lecture theatures, i suddenly recount of my ODAC orientation days when some of us did this ghostly night walk around it school. That was like almost 4 years ago. This surge of pitifulness overcome me when i realised there wasnt anyone walking with me, talking about the fun of getting lost back then. Among the batch of 2003 foot freshie, i was one of the few who 'made it' thus far.

I hit the final period on my slide at 610am. I went for a short nap and woke up at 8am. The feeling is near death i tell you. I thought my head was on the floor when i stood up from my bed.

I tried to rush for some rehearsing session before the professors come in. TUT 41. 845am. And so i went on... talking to myslf( sometimes it scares me quite abit just hearing my own voice..sick of loneliness ). Was glad to see LOUSY NG. That was like 9am. But i did not expect this professor D that came in with him. Prof D sat down, realising i'm rehearsing, and told me not to waste time and start presenting.

WHAT HAPPEN TO PROF W???! where is my examiner? Is there some sort of a cork up?

Yeah indeed there was. Prof W forgot all abt the examining today and i ended up having to wait for 2 hrs more. Ok..fair enough, 2 hr not a long time. I am in dire need of sound sleep, as well as letting out the nonsense i had been churning for the past 8 hrs. I almost wanted to tell LOUSY NG that i dont care if professors are big shot or whatsoever. You rob my bloody time and i wish you ill luck till end of time!!!!!

1055am. I was on my way. Could only hear the distinctive squeaking sound from my leather shoes every time it makes an unreluctant contact with the flooring .

Presentation was smooth, and i actually expected the Prof to whack me with questions. I wasnt able to answer fully what he asked. Being there appearing neat with goods delivered( and a bare 1.5 hrs of sleep the night before ) was more than i could expect myself to give.

The most disturbing sight of the day : LOUSY NG actually DOZED OFF while i was presenting! Oh my goodness! Indeed LOUSY!!!

At the end of the presentation, i probed LOUSY NG about my likely FYP grade. He gave a few sweeping comments and finally this one

" DONT WORRY, YOUR GRADES ARE GOOD ENOUGH FOR GRADUATE STUDIES "

Hey folks, dont get me wrong, i wasnt trying to show you all that i'm happy or whatsoever. When that came out from him, i felt disturbed. In the first place, i never think he had a good gauge of my progress. This FYP project could be said to be my own idea and product. To be frank i was just glad that i pulled through this semester doing what i was supposed to do. But when people say such things, i would normally get my hopes heightened up.

I dont wanna think so much into it now. Indeed, the longest Night spent in NTU has taken a toil out of me

* Yawnz