A fearful Wednesday and Thursday

TEAM MICRO slide boys were due to fly off on National Day( Thursday ) for their competition in shanghai, so i somehow found myself skating with them at the MSCP on a wednesday evening, to see them before they go off. Braden's Dad was kind enough to let me go on a spin on his TRITON 4 BY 4. It's a OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD experience for me as i thought i was cruising on 60km /hr ( when actually i was on 110km / hr) along Gambas Avenue.

When i was skating on my way home, i felt lonely and lousy. I was subconsciously cursing to myself because i had always wanted to do a sport to that level of commitment( Those boys are representing Singapore fyi ). If ONLY i had been more of a sports person while in secondary school......

In another perspective, maybe i wont enjoy it, cos that kind of commitment calls for training, training and more training. So in conclusion, better to stick to sports at a leisure and recreational level.

I had a late night on Wednesday, sending dad for a body chk up in SGH after he complainted of pain near the kidney area. I was tired, but glad that the diagnose results indicate no signs of diabetes and any other nonsense. Dad is a responsible man to himself, in a sense that he doesnt smoke, gamble or drink much. Guess i got that in my genes as well.

By the time i got back, it was close to 4am, Thursday Morning. Mom and Dad left for their Malacca trip the next morning ( they also barely had a few hours of rest ). I had to force my mind awake to join Loki and J in Tampines for a skate sharing session. Its certainly good to bring myself back to a beginner's point of view for skating. When you share with people the skills , you would concurrently remind yourself not to adopt those bad and lazy habits. That's humbling and refreshing. And probably that's the only reason that saw me through a SUPER ZZZ Thursday morning skating for close to 3 hours.

I did not head back for home after that gruelling KEEP-MYSELF-AWAKE-AFTER-2HR-SLEEP session. I drove straight down to Sim Lim Square to help dearie source for a good laptop. She was looking for a small LCD laptop that's light and portable. With a mindset of a slightly-more-than-2k budget, hunting for the product aint easy. I breathed hard with every pace i took, feeling the effects of the late night monster consuming my health point. When i was finally out of Sim Lim, i wondered how i endured through the ocean of people and how they tried to ambush me in all directions with outstretching arms holding flyers.

Both me and dearie had the tastiest satay cum ji char Dinner in west coast market. As to how i drove the car from Queen Street to Clementi i could not comprehend. I felt so mechanical, running low on attention on my way back home. Certainly wasnt in the best condition to drive a car if you asked me. The ultimate sense of relief overcome me as i pull the handbrake in the MSCP beside my house. Finally!

As i sat in front of my terminal penning this entry, i took occasional glances at my left ankle. IT apparently seemed swollen again. And i felt really intimidated by it. Maybe it was gonna stay this size forever ( since i had an incision on that area and my main arteries might have been 'adjusted' to run along this area)or maybe the cyst is growing again! I dont really want to think about it again. Really hated the 8K surgery bills back in January and the immobility after that. Most importantly i couldnt skate for more than 2 months! Please, let this swelling ankle issue be a thing of the past. I seriously dont want to see myself going back to the doctors with a VERY big ankle asking for help.

I have been in dire situations many times in my life. And certainly i hate seeing myself in this kind of plight.